We’ve discussed before that I am de-cluttering my life. Y’all were with me for the de-clutter challenge, which I won and failed at the same time!
Getting rid of things is the easy part.
Getting rid of the million of repetitive thoughts that crowd my brain, not so much!
I have a very monkey brain. It’s all over the place, never settling in one spot for long.
Part of my declutter is trying to deal with those thoughts – especially the repetitive, redundant ones. I don’t need to think the same thought 100 times in the space of 5 minutes. Which happens. Frequently.
To help combat this, I’ve added meditation to my daily life.
For someone who doesn’t sit still very long, this has been a challenge.
Alas, it’s important to my growth, so I’ve powered through. I started small; just a few minutes at a time. I found a few mantra songs that were longer and I used them. I found a comfort in the meditation. (It probably didn’t hurt that I usually did it immediately after my yoga class, but I’m still taking the Win!)
I tried a guided meditation the other day. Thank you YouTube.
It wasn’t bad.
I thought, let’s try more of those!
Below is today’s meditation and my thoughts as I sat there in a very “om” state of mind! Let me remind you – there aren’t supposed to be any thoughts happening, the goal is to clear my head… Okay, we are on the same page, let’s begin!
You are in a big forest, you are surrounded by beautiful greenery. You slowly walk deeper into the forest. It is lush and green all around you.
Okay, I’ve been in a forest voice over guy. I used to live a 2 minute horse back ride from the tree line of a massive forest.
It’s not green and it’s not lush.
A forest has trees and these trees grow tall and block the sunlight from reaching the ground, so a forest, is more brown. You’ll have some patches of green, but not lush green grass. Now, if we were in a meadow, yes, there would be green, but deep into a forest, the only green you’ll see is moss.
Ah! Moss! Okay, now I see green, I’m picturing lots and lots of moss. I’m focused on my breathing. I’m back in the zone.
You see a path. A beautiful green path through the forest with tall trees on both sides.
Again with the green – if it is a path, the obviously the green has been worn away from feet walking the path! Also, it’s not green deep in the forest, but okay, not going through that again. There is a path. “hi path! good to see you”. Okay, breathing in, breathing out. I got this.
As we begin to walk, we notice the joy within, to be, in this place, this forest, within nature.
Okay, I’m back in the zone, focused on my breathing, I got this! Let’s go voice over guy, I’m ready to meditate! I’m back in the forest, I see the moss, I step over a log, we are GOOD!
As we take this path, we realize how happy we are
Crap, you didn’t tell me I was supposed to take the path! Now I have to run back to where the path is. Why didn’t you tell me to take the path? I would have taken the path! Am I weird that I didn’t automatically take the path? The rest of the forest looked so much more appealing than the well traveled road – er, path. Robert Frost? I should look that up. Path, path, path. No, I am not happy to be in the forest, I had to run to get on the darn path.
Moving freely. One step at a time.
No kidding one step at a time. Who takes more than one step at a time? Is it even possible to take two steps at the same time? Isn’t that called a hop?
Yeah… it was at this point I realized that there was no way I was reaching any type of zen moment and shut it off.
I mean really, shouldn’t some more research be done before they write out a script? And, seriously, guided meditation.
By not telling me to take the path you weren’t GUIDING me!
Obviously I need a different meditation today!
But seriously, am I that wrong for having not taken the path? He just said “you see a path”. Yes, I saw it, but I wasn’t going to take it! I bet the rest of you would have though, it would have been automatic for you guys to take the path, right?
Does anyone else look at that and wonder how long before the rocks fall over?
No? Just me?
Figures. Y’all are the ones that took the path when you were supposed to, too!